@Harriet–Old! You are so funny. Thank you for affirming my writing and my various paths–you are certainly a role model for me.

I almost could have written your sentiments myself (other than the book, I have yet to read Po Bronson but that book is now on reserve at my library!).

My ‘backstory’ is rather large, but I recently closed down my online and wholesale business of making herbal medicinal teas because while I love alternative medicine (I’m a trained clinical herbalist, amongst other talents ;>) what I was doing was far too limiting for me. I realized that I was building a rep locally as the ‘tea lady.’ And when called this, my heart did not sing. In fact, it deflated a little.

To put this in the framework of Bronson’s words (wonderful insights) I am now clear that this work was *helping* me towards my calling, however it was not IT — it certainly did not cause me to rise up and greet the day.

Writing does that for me — it has in various ways since I was young, but I always pushed it aside for more “serious” endeavors (really, I think I was in denial and simply did not take myself seriously). That, combined with somehow sharing my lifetime’s passion with consciousness studies, spirituality, ritual and mythology — and why these elements are so vital to our evolution. Now more than ever.

I’ve always known I was supposed to teach, but I struggle constantly in regard to what exactly, and how. I see writing and speaking as somehow going hand in hand (for instance, writing articles on consciousness in day to day life, as well as giving classes on meditation, self-possession, etc. And, of course my book THE SOUL’S BELOVED, which at its core is a tale of how we as soul’s evolve, played out here on Earth) and yet I constantly trip myself up.

And then there are my two children. I also, WANT to be present. I grew up with parents who constantly wanted to be somewhere else, and I still sting from the damage it caused (well, they were abusive and neglectful, to be clear). I want to raise them, be here for them — be present to them. And yet, becoming a mother is in part was has finally enabled me to give birth to myself –finally — as a woman, as a writer. Hopefully as a teacher.

I’ll stop here, there is so much to say! I think your ideas for these classes, tailored around people’s ‘non-linear’ lifestyles is wonderful!

You rock, woman!
Kimberely